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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Goodbye, Goodbye

Well, the last four months have been interesting to say the least, but it is now almost time for my swamp phase to be over. That means, no more hard manual labor in waist deep water, no more weird tan, and also no more swampfro or facial hair.
So, say goodbye with me.
As for what's next? I still have no idea.
But, my head will be close to shaved, as it was last year, and the face fur will be gone. Will I tidy and mature up my room? I don't know. I think I will be moving out again at the end of the year,
Well, enough of this. I need something to rail against. Probably not tonight, but maybe.
Until next time,

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Rant #2

Two in one day? Yes.
The second rant today centers on the topic of giving in America (And should be shorter than the first rant).
That's right, philanthropy. Yay! Actually, I am just going to point the finger at myself:
Here is a conversation between me,
"Hey Nicholas!"
"Whatsup, me? Dawg, you handsome."
"So, you sure like giving gifts, huh?"
"Yeah, it makes me feel all fuzzy inside."
"But, admit it...sometimes you get pissed when you don't get anything in return."
"NO!!! ...yeah...sometimes."
"And admit it. When you put money in the offering box, or if you think about giving money to a charity...sometimes you wonder what everyone else is giving, don't you?"
"And if people with equal means to you don't give as much, you judge them, don't you?"
"I really hate talking to myself."
"But it gets better: even people of lesser and greater means than judge them in their giving, too, huh?"
"Yeah, sometimes. You suck."
"Yes, you do."

Anyway, I seem to not be alone in this problem. I have to admit, though, it is quite difficult to keep one hand from knowing what the other is doing (that is either a reference to an Archie Bunker comic, or a Bible verse). It seems the culture here has us more worried about what others are giving (or the good others are doing) than what we ourselves are doing. Also, sometimes humans worry that others will see how much they have given, and will think they have not given enough.
It is in all these categories that I encourage you to follow my own mantra, one that has served me well, that is, when I remember it:
Fuck everybody.
That's right, everybody.
No, not literally! What I mean is: Who cares what everyone else is doing? Do you think God cares in relation to you? Of course not. God wants you to do your best. He does not care about your best in relation to everyone else. Everyone else does not matter, in this regard. It seems some of us would rather point the finger at other people for not giving enough as a substitute for giving any of ourselves. This don't cut it.
To relate this to my previous post, you have to do what God wants you to do. At the moment, he might want you to give $50 to little children in Africa with no water. He may want you to give it to a family you know, so they can pay a bill. He may want you to buy a video game, because he wants you to relax, and learn and understand the spiritual advantages of being knowledgable in the realm of zombie-eradification. Sometimes, you just need to rest.
The point is, you have to do what God says is best for you. If your friend gave all his spending cash to the poor this week, and you used your money to buy Sideways on DVD, you don't have to feel guilty, plus, your friend should be keeping his mouth shut, anyway, because he is not supposed to be talking about it. This last phrase is about as Biblical as you can get.
Matthew 6:3-4 "But when you do a charitable deed, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, that your charitable deed may be in secret; and your Father who sees in secret will Himself reward you openly." (New King James Version) Gee, I think those letters might be red.
On the other hand, if all you do is spend your money on you, I would find it hard to believe you are operating in God's will, though, as the whole purpose of this post points out, it is none of my, or anyone else's business what you give. You have to do what God wants you to do.

Rant #1

The new promised rant is here. First off, I want to say, this rant is not directed toward any particular person. This is a problem I have found in myself over the years, and have been itching to rant about. This rant is about Married/Dating Life vs. Single Life, directed toward Christians, but applicable to anyone.

Today, most of society, and the church expect you to get married. You basically have to do it. The pressure is immense. Everyone I know who is not married has figuratively gone bald worrying about this at some point or another in their lives. This is crazy.
Why is this such an issue?
You are ostracized from society if you are not married or dating. Older single people are nearly considered deviants. Especially in the church. Why?
I seem to remember a certain apostle who wrote about half the New Testament not having that high of an opinion on marriage. This certain Jewish Carpenter some of us worship apparently never got married at all (unless you believe that DaVinci stuff...sorry, another matter of BS).
This is where I make my point:
Some of you are never EVER going to get married. God has not created a special person for you. You are going to be single until the day you die.
That's right. God might love you so much, He doesn't want to share you with anyone else.
Not me, you say. Certainly, he doesn't mean me.
Yep. It might be you. It might even be me.
For some reason, being the person you are meant to be, and accomplishing what you, are supposed to accomplish, has fallen a distant second to marriage (or having a girl/boyfriend, period). Much of the he church seems to have seized us all tightly on the image of Christ and His bride, and has forgotten that this is only a metaphor for the church's relationship with Christ, not a man's relationship to a woman. Sure, marriage is a wonderful thing, and it symbolizes our relationship with Christ beautifully. That doesn't mean we are all supposed to marry a human being. That means we are all married to Christ. That's a pretty big difference.
All of this business about marriage, and loving a partner has also distracted attention from another important topic:
Love your neighbor as yourself. You have to love yourself to fulfill half of this commandment. If you can't love yourself when you are a single person, marriage is not going to solve the problem. In fact, you are only going to make you, and your partner miserable.
The only way to be completely happy is to find who you are in Christ, and life that life. You can find the answer to this during marriage, but the point is that being who you are in Christ is the ultimate goal of your life, not finding a mate.
God may have something in store for you so big, you won't be able to devote time to a mate, but, if you are living the life he has for you, you are going to be happy.
Now, I know every single person, and maybe some married probably want to shoot me, but you know this is true. Even some of you with boy/girlfriends right now may end up becoming a single for lifer, and I am here to tell you, that is not a bad thing, because I know that the only way to be happy is through Christ, and Christ is all anyone needs, and if you think you need a man or a woman to make you happy, you are living a lie.
Do I want to get married? Honestly? Yes, someday. But, is getting married point number one in my life, right now? Nope. Am I exempt from staying up late when it rains and getting all lonely and wanting to spoon with someone? Nope.
So, while we singles are waiting, and even if you are one of the ones who will never marry (and this could be any one of us, and this is not a bad thing), think about this:
1. You have a great gift, right now. Your time belongs to you. While your married and dating friends have to live two lives, you are living your own, and you should enjoy every second of it, because it is a gift.
2. Your possible future plans are literally, limitless.
3. No one screws up your toothpaste, farts in your bed, says annoying things you hate and have to hear everyday, spends all the money you want to blow on pizza and video games, or guilts you into cleaning up, but you.
4. Kids?
Before you married and dating folks jump into my mouth, and start spearing my tongue, your lifestyle has benefits, too, but I tell you this:

You and your life are no better than the rest of us. Don't forget it. Not one little bit.

Haha, that was awesome. Guess what? There is another rant coming up very soon, maybe even tonight.

"And...if you don't like those 2 movies, what *do* you like?"

"Born Into Brothels." Best film I have seen this year, hands down.
Currently playing at Siegen Village.
Also, a huge unrelated rant could be coming. Maybe.

Monday, April 11, 2005

Sin City: Final Thoughts

After all the comments, I think we've come to an impasse. Basically, my side of the argument says the visual innovation does not justify the content, while the other side says the visual innovation does. I guess this basically comes down to a moral issue for me, which is a whole 'nother argument for a whole 'nother day, but today is another day, so if anyone has any thoughts on this, let her rip, though I insist, as before, don't rip me, rip the issue.
Of course, I realize having an opinion does not make me correct, but it does mean I think I am.
Thanks again for the comments. You guys rock harder than I ever knew.

Saturday, April 09, 2005


OH NO! I got more posters. They are crazy! Me,
too. Please, if you feel like it, comment on my previous
post. I want to learn something, if there is anything to be taught.

He's Eating Again

So, I haven't posted or commented on anything lately, because I have been preoccupied with this weird and nagging notion called life. Screw that, though! Actually, I feel a rant coming on, but not yet. So here is just a burst of my opinion. Enjoy. Or don't. I like pretending like I don't care :-}

So, I saw Sin City last night. I have to go against the opinion of most of my friends, and say, I think this is a terrible movie. In fact, had I not been holding a wonderful conversation with someone, I would have left. My main problem with the film =s it has the substance of absolutely nothing. Sure, it is pretty to look at. So are porn films. At least during a porn film...nevermind. Anyway, this movie is gratuity, for gratuities sake. If you enjoy seeing people tear off other's genitals with their bare hands, people being eaten alive and forced to watch, numerous and various-angled beheadings (I am really starting to thing that Robert Rodriguez has circumcision anxiety), child molestation played to comic book effect, Carla Gugino walking around topless in a thong, various thonged whores with machine guns and samurai swords that chop people to pieces, and people thinking out loud in first person, all to the effect and purpose of nothing, then you will love this movie. I read a comment by a Christian that basically said Sin City is good because it shows us what would happened in a world without God. What a dumb thing to say. Do you really need to witness all of this empty insanity to land on this conclusion? Who, after living any amount of years as a human being, is going to go watch Sin City and think, "WOW!!! I finally get it. The world needs JESUS CHRIST!!! Hooray! Nothing else could have ever given me this revelation!" I've also seen Christians say Sin City shows that even in a world of violence, love can exist. A. Show me love, real love, mind you, in this movie. B. Isn't this one of those things you learn at the age of two, or by watching pretty much anything else?
Now, I note, this is only my opinion. I would like people who liked the movie to tell me why. I don't want to be personally attacked. I don't want to be told to open my mind. My mind is a door, with a handle and everything, and I use it at least once a day, and am waiting to be enlightened. Just tell me, without insulting me, why you liked the movie, outside of "it was really pretty", cuz', once again, porn star analogy. If you aren't a blogger member, you can still comment.
Eat yogurt.

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Swimming in Red

Yes, the time of fatness and lardidity, otherwise known as winter, has come to an end, and now it is time for self-improvement. (Time for another run-on) I have pretty much realized that, at 23, I am nowhere near where I thought I'd be by now, ten, or even three years ago, but I have decided to not give up, or as people say around here (now using euphemisms in place of profanity in an attempt to self-improve):
"Sexual intercourse it, I am going to go all out on this female dog (the "female dog" being life)." There's a little bit of Southern wisdom for you all.
Oh, wait. Watch this first:

O.K., you can go to bed, now.

Friday, April 01, 2005

What's going on with e-blog?

Okay, I am eternally grateful for the free services I recieve from, but what the heck is going on? I just posted comments in three different places, and only one posted. The other two are readable, but only if one clicks the "post comment" button inside the comments page.
Also, I am enjoying the lighter tone my blog has taken after the serious rants I made. I don't know how long this period of prosperity and joy will last, but I am guessing it will go on until someone/thing pisses me off. Hey, photobucket is working for me now, though, so maybe I can take a picture of my face to go with each rant. Then, you can see my angry face, my pretentious face, and my egomaniacal face, which is probably the sexiest I can muster. You can basically just peel off the sexuality. And eat it. If you so desire. Too much Buffy.